Day 42

It's been getting harder to stay consistent with this whole blogging thing. But sometimes I feel like it's hard to stay consistent with just about anything. Last night I had a dream about a rat. A great big white rat that kept trying to get to me. Just so you know, I hate rats, mice, and any other type of rodent. I find them extremely disgusting. Needless, to say the dream kind of freaked me out. So when I woke up, I checked under my bed for any rats. There was none, thank goodness. Today was just a really good, sunshiny day. I got my house clean, Baby girl was happy to just run around and play. Oh and speaking of baby girl, her dad has taught her how to buckle herself in her car seat. So when we try to unbuckle her and get her out, she tells us no and then buckles herself in again and claps afterwards. It's the cutest thing. Sometimes, it's really hard not to worry and be afraid of the future and what it holds. (especially when you don't feel prepared) But it's during moments like those that I realize that I just need to be here, in the present. I need to hold on to that which keeps me going. Namely, my family. I thank God everyday for my wonderful husband and adorable daughter. They are my sunshine during those rainy days. So keep going. Love ya all