Day 42

It's been getting harder to stay consistent with this whole blogging thing. But sometimes I feel like it's hard to stay consistent with just about anything. Last night I had a dream about a rat. A great big white rat that kept trying to get to me. Just so you know, I hate rats, mice, and any other type of rodent. I find them extremely disgusting. Needless, to say the dream kind of freaked me out. So when I woke up, I checked under my bed for any rats. There was none, thank goodness. Today was just a really good, sunshiny day. I got my house clean, Baby girl was happy to just run around and play. Oh and speaking of baby girl, her dad has taught her how to buckle herself in her car seat. So when we try to unbuckle her and get her out, she tells us no and then buckles herself in again and claps afterwards. It's the cutest thing. Sometimes, it's really hard not to worry and be afraid of the future and what it holds. (especially when you don't feel prepared) But it's during moments like those that I realize that I just need to be here, in the present. I need to hold on to that which keeps me going. Namely, my family. I thank God everyday for my wonderful husband and adorable daughter. They are my sunshine during those rainy days. So keep going. Love ya all

Day 39

I haven't been able to blog because of some unfortunate technical difficulties with the Internet and computer. Technology is a wonder. . .  Over this past week, my life has still been hard but I've been still trying to continue to accentuate the positive highlights of my days. One thing that I have learned this past week is that God gives us trials to test and try us. When we continue to press forward with faith, God gives us bits and pieces of understanding. But if we falter and let our doubts overwhelm us, we lose sight of everything and are consumed in despair. Another thing that has been on my mind as of late is this connection: when I have a positive attitude-I have more hope in the world around me-when I have more hope-it leads to an increase in my faith that God will continue to take care of me and my family-when I have an increase of faith-I have an increase in understanding-etc etc. . . .And that is what makes me a happier me. Yes, bad things continue to happen and will continue to happen but at the same time God will continue to bless me and bare me up so long as I don't turn my back on Him.
Today was a rough day. It was full of bad news and disappointments but you know I could feel God helping me through it. I don't know how else to explain how God makes some one's burden feel light. Perhaps it's just the realization that with every down there is an up. With every negative there is a positive. And that's what God's tender mercies are. Yes, we weren't able to get Andre's contacts but we were able to get a much needed oil change on the truck. So there you go. Have a positive attitude and gratefully turn your lemons into lemonade. Va La! Rant over. Love you all